December has come again.
Today, is the 335th day of the year.
It has been almost a year since I went home for good.
My final flight from Auckland Airport to KLIA was on the 15h December 2008. How time flies.
There are sooooooooo many things have happened through out this one year.
A lot of things.
Culture shock, weather shock, new friends, friendship, relationship, kpli troublesome yet awesome life, last but not least, adapting life back with family, after so much ‘freedom life’..hehe..
Well, at least I cried less this year. I love that part.
Its not that I love to cry so much before, but cry is one of things that I could do to lease my sadness, anger, disappointment, homesick and all the negative feelings.
Less cry = less negative feeling.
So, that’s the feeling of being home. Alhamdulillah.
Some people asked me, do you miss New Zealand?
People who close to me, they will know how I am missing New Zealand terribly.
NZ has been home for me for about 4 years.
4 years did not sound long enough ey, but when I was in that duration of 4 years, it seemed long enough.
I managed to know a lot of people with different kind of attitude.
I managed to know who my friends are, and who are not.
I managed to go around all over NZ quite few times, with awesome people around me. I managed to come home every summer (I planned to work every summer, but I ended up spending my summer at home with my beloved ones).
I managed to do some part time work like counting cars, cleaner, student’s ambassador, babysitter and etc, which taught me that it was not that easy to get money!
Well, I don’t think I can list out of everything I had achieved when I was there. Most of all, I miss NZ and I hope I could go back there someday with my family and show places that have taught me more about meaning of life.
Sometimes I did not know what I want.
Sometimes I hurt people’s feeling.
Sometimes I am being too selfish.
Sometimes I say something bad about people.
Sometimes I think something bad about people.
Sometimes I even hate people.
Sometimes I want people to be good to me, yet I do not the same thing to them.
Sometimes I give less, and I expect more.
I am a bad person, am i? =(
I want to share few simple rules that we can do in our everyday life,
to make sure that we are living in this world in with one purpose of life,
that is MENCARI REDHA ALLAH.
The other day, one of my Uniten’s friends, put on his fb status that
most of people are forgetting the purpose of life.
Very true indeed.
Sometimes, we are too busy caring about our live here, and forgetting the Hereafter.
These are just halves of them, I will post the rest later.
1. Start off each day with 'adhkaar al-istiyqaadh' (waking up Supplications), thanking Allah for waking up in good shape.
2. Put Allah first in your life.
3. Broaden your horizons - learn 5 new verses from the Quran every day, travel to pray far in the mosque to brighten your day,take up a booklet having supplications and read them.
4. Pray Salaat Al-dhuhaa (after sunrise).
5. If someone says something mean ;to you, just shrug it off and dismiss it in a friendly, laidback manner, and pray that Allah shall forgive them.
6. When you get angry, remember Allah, and how short and worthless life is to waste in being Angry.
7. Remember that you can never have too many friends, but you can have few quality friends that help you fulfill the purpose of your creation (i.e. live for Allah).
8. When you're happy, try to share your happiness with others. Thank Allah for that, and pray its continuation.
9. When something bad or embarrassing happens to you, just think that it could always be worse, remember the reward of patience,and thank Allah that it's not worse than it is.
10. Do something extra of goodness once in a while, like feeding a poor person, or caressing an orphan's head.
11. Never stop believing that you can win Allah's love and thus work For it. Then you can win the love of Allah's slaves.
12. Spend some time thinking of Allah's amazing creation.
Till then. InsyaAllah
As what my sister have wrote for her status the other day,
last weekend was my cousin’s engangement in Pasir Gudang (Congratulationssssss Yuhan! ), then, this week will be Ammar Darwish’s kenduri cukur jambul
in Teluk Ramunia of Kota Tinggi.
The weekend next will be the other cousin of my’s wedding.
We celebrated the first day of Raya at kampong together with
Wang, Fuang Umi, Fuang Baba, Bachok and Cik’s Family.
I felt soooooo happy that I have got the chance to hear the takbir again, here in kampong..after years of Arabic’s takbir back in New Zealand.
Since the house is just next to the surau, we can hear the sound very clearly.
After that, around 3.30 pm, we were packing back to our own house in Pekan Nenas.
On the way back, we managed to snap a family photo in the studio..
Yay!!! and here is the latest picture of Hanaffi’s & Co =D
Oh ya..another remarkable thing during this Syawal was
I joined my childhood friend’s Raya Convoy.
It has been 12 years since our last meeting.
At first I felt soooo shy to join them in, but when the day comes,
I could feel that the feeling and the friendship is still there.
Thank you guys!
See the picture below and you can see how happy we were!
I won’t say much in this entry as I am not in a very stable condition.
Not physically.
Something unexpected has happened and I am a bit blur at the moment.
Thank God it happens here, in my home,
rather than when I was thousand miles away from home.
After so many years, suddenly it happens. It is nobody’s fault.
It just happen that way, and we, as the slaves of Him, have to accept it.
It hurts. It is.
But there is nothing I could do about it.
Other that pray hard, pray hard and pray hard that everything will be just fine.
Everything will be back to normal. Or maybe even better than before.
InsyaAllah.
No matter what happen, my heart will stay the same.
Al Baqarah 153.
Hai orang-orang yang beriman,
jadikanlah sabar dan shalat sebagai penolongmu,
sesungguhnya Allah beserta orang-orang yang sabar.
Al Mulk 23.
Katakanlah: "Dia-lah Yang menciptakan kamu
dan menjadikan bagi kamu pendengaran, penglihatan dan hati."
(Tetapi) amat sedikit kamu bersyukur.
Assalamualaikum people
Ramadhan 1425 @ October 2005
1. The kind hearted mix Maori-Pakeha makcik Dewan Makan would make my food ready for both breaking fast and sahur.
2. Sometimes, Kak Lane would fetch me at hostel and she would cook great dishes and we ate together with Syed as well
3. If there was no invitation from Kak Lane, Syed, Abg Ziad or Kak Pica, yes, I would sahur, buka puasa and terawih alone..yes people, alone, in Room 48 of Moginie Hall
4. I hardly cried because I was counting days to go home on the 5th of Syawal, right after my final exams. Yes, we did have exams on Hari Raya Pertama.
5. It was hard and quite challenging as people around you did not fast. Not many Moslems around, Malaysians laaaagi la takde. But, Alhamdulillah, it was such a beautiful memory and hey, I did survived!
Ramadhan 1426 @ October 2006
1. I was not alone anymore!!! There were 8 of us berbuka puasa bersama – me, hani, yusma, nabil, nadiah, kak Leila, imran and razif..well, the number of Malaysians in Palmerston North has grown more than 1000%..hehe
2. We had kind of duty rosters to cook since early February, so we just continued the roster. Me together with my partner Hani because she is a very good cook, and I am not =p
3. I remember how Yusma were craving for food like apam balik and murtabak. And we were blessed, because of her craveness, she managed to cook the dishes and we managed to eat all those things!!! I also remember how Hani tebuk the tin susu to make roti jala a reality!
4. Alhamdulillah, we sahur and buka puasa together..and pray terawih berjamaah in the hallway through out the month of Ramadhan
5. It was one of the most beautiful Ramadhaan I ever had in my life
Ramadhan 1427 @ September 2007
1. New housemates. For the first time I lived together with Malaysians under one roof. Hana.Yusma.Hani
2. This year, every weekdays, we went to iftar in Islamic Centre and we stayed there until Tarawih. So we just have to cook for sahur . Sometimes, ada juga juadah dari jiran tetangga =)
3. This is the busiest Ramadhan I had because right after Terawih, I will go to the Stats Lab until midnight and finished all my assignments.
4. My situation was still unknown because at that time, I still did not know whether this Ramadhan was going to be my last Ramadhan in NZ or not.
5. Owh, suddenly I remembered the Mongolia man..hehehehe
Ramadhan 1428 @ September 2008
1. New place, new faces, new friends, new environment, back in Hamilton
2. Every weekend was full with potluck or kenduri buka puasa at different houses..yummm!
3. owh ya, the hostel girls, together with 35D Cameron Rd girls were breaking fast together every single day.
4. Terawih berjemaah almost every night, sometimes at Kak Aisyah and Kak Eli’s crib
5. A bit sad because this was the last Ramadhan in NZ, yet excited to go home!
Sedikit pengisian, diambil dari notes facebook Ain =)
Abu Hurairah ra. berkata , Nabi saw bersabda:
"Barangsiapa yang membebaskan orang mukmin dari kesempitan dunia, maka Allah kan membebaskannya dari kesempitan hari kiamat.
Barangsiapa yang memberi kemudahan orang yang mengalami kesulitan,maka Allah akan memberi kemudahan kepadanya di dunia dan di akhirat.
Barangsiapa menutupi aib orang muslim maka Allah akan menutupi aibnya di dunia dan di akhirat.Allah senantiasa menolong hamba-Nya selama hamba tersebut menolong saudaranya.
Barangsiapa yang meniti jalan untuk memperoleh ilmu,maka Allah akan memberikan kemudahan baginya jalan menuju syurga.Tidaklah suatu kaum berkumpul di rumah Allah(masjid),membaca kitab Allah dan mempelajarinya,nescaya turun kepada mereka ketenteraman,rahmat meliputi mereka,para malaikat berkerumun di sekelilingnya dan Allah menyebut-nyebut mereka di hadapan makhluk yang berada disisi-Nya.
Barangsiapa amalnya selalu terlambat(kurang),maka nasabnya tidak akan dapat menyempurnakannya."
-Hadis riwayat muslim-hadis ke-36 dari hadis arba'in-
So people, wherever you are, Selamat Mengimarahkan Ramadhan!
Kurang-kurangkan perkara yang kurang berfaedah seperti melayari facebook, membaca blog, menonton drama kesukaan terlalu lama..alangkah indahnya sekiranya waktu yang digunakan untuk melayari internet itu digunakan untuk membaca AlQuran sehinggalah khatam (pesanan ini untuk diri saya sendiri..huhu..dan anda juga )
Saya sangat teruja dan berasa sangat bersyukur kerana setelah 4 kali Ramadhan jauh di perantauan, tahun ini insyaAllah saya dapat kembali berpuasa bersama-sama keluarga tercinta. Jadi kawan-kawan di Palmerston North dan Hamilton jangan jealous ya =)
Anyway, itu semua tidak penting. Yang penting adalah bagaimana pengisian Ramadhan kita. Sama-samalah kita menjadikan Ramadhan tahun ini lebih baik dari tahun-tahun sebelumnya. Siapa tahu, ia mungkin Ramadhan yang terakhir buat kita
Renung-renungkan, dan selamat beramal =)
Yesterday, my sister in law, Kak Suzy has safely delivered a baby boy in Puteri Specialist Hospital in Larkin. Here is the details of the new member of Hanaffi's
Baby's Name : Ammar Darwish (to be confirmed)
Weight : 3.58 kg
Height : 55 cm
Time of Birth : 2.45pm (normal)
Date of Birth : 27th of June 2009
I didnt have the picture as i was too excited last night when i first met him
I will post it later from yus's hp
He is way cute and adorable
I can't wait to watch him grows up and can play together with faiq
My dad : Ambok dah ade 2 cucu da Elun
Me : Haah ambok..elun pon dah ade 2 anak sedare..hehe
Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah
That whats my dad said after my brother called and tell the details
We went to the hospital at night
And I could see Kak Suzy was so lethargic, but she seems okay and happy too
The new parents are just too excited to enter the world of parenthood
There is no word to describe the bliss..the joy..the happiness that i felt in that room last night
and I will pray for its continuation..insyaAllah =)
About my own life
I have started my 10 weeks practical in SMK Taman Universiti
So far so good
Its just you have to yell to 40 students every day
hehe
and I am lucky to get a good class
so, Thank God
I just hope these coming ten weeks will always be fine for me
InsyaAllah
Till then, people =D
"watch that Allah is watching you!"
Actually I have few drafts that I haven’t finished yet
But I think I want to write a letter tonight
Since someone did an entry about missing me (click here), I have decided to write a letter to that someone special.
Assalamualaikum Farhana
Coincidently, I have read again the letter you gave me last Saturday night. Strange, funny little thing right? We were reminiscing of the same thing hana!
I miss the time when we solat jemaah together almost everytime and of course reading the maksurat together (which hardly be done here =(). Mase usrah di bilikku yang best tu, sambil korang membaca-baca nota-nota akak di dinding, di pintu wardrobe dan di depan meja study..hehehe
When we were housemates, sometimes, I thought you are matured than me. Especially when the time I got a lil bit crazy (hehe..seperti gedik terlebih dan sebagainye..).
I miss it when you were ‘yelling’ at us when hani yusma n me were ‘quarelling’..hana jadi macam orang tengah la konon..sure sebab hana tense kteorg dok bising je..hahha..tapi tak selalu right..since I think I spent 1/3 of my final year in the beloved stats lab in aghort building..jarang-jarang balik rumah before 12am..so sesekali balik rumah awal, tu yang buat bising tu..saje nak kasik hana hilang rindu kat akak.
I miss your cook hana..even evrytime you cooked something, you will tell us tak jadi la kak elun..makan je la ek…hello..it was yummy, yet you said tak jadik?then me hani n yusma would reply you owh ok..if tak jadi pun da rasa sedap macam ni..of course if jadik, memang sedap gilaa laa..hihi
And the list just goes on. I would not finish them in one night if I ever want to write everything I miss about you, and of course my life in 2007 in Palmerston North. I just wanted to say, cherish and appreciate the moment while you are there hana. You will miss every single second that you have spent there once you are home in Malaysia.
And tell you what, Malaysia is the real ‘medan pertempuran’. So, fulfill yourself with enough courage, knowledge and everything you have to. I talk about both life now and Hereafter. Yang penting jaga and kuatkan iman. Benda tu la yang paling susah nak jaga. Bila da balik Malaysia, dugaan menguji iman tu sebenarnya laaaaagi kuat dibandingkan hidup di ceruk Palmerston North tu. No my dear. I am not going to scare you my sister, I am just telling you to prepare yourself with enough ‘bekalan’.
Ok la.. I think it is enough for this time around. All the best for your finals my dear! Buang tepi benda-benda remeh dan focus on the right thing. Focus on why we are sending there =)
I know you could do this time.
Most of all, I miss you too Farhana!!!!!!!!!
Salam rindu dari kejauhan,
Kakak Fadhlunnisak
yusma.me.hana.hani
my lovely 2007 housemates
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